why you?
Then, why not?
I've wished time and again
That it would not be
Yet it was
it has always been
will it always be?
I know what was and is
I've tried to run away
Hide and pretend
Convinced myself otherwise
Still it was
You again
I wish I could not
That we never met
So that I dont have to wonder
Did it have to be you?
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
The son/sun
I believe it spoke to him in ways only he could explain. In the morning when he had to get up it would urge him to prepare for his day. He knew it was time to prepare ox for the plough, plant or reaping. To some of us who did have a share in this bond would often grumble at his insensitivity towards our comfort. To him it spoke of a possible tomorrow and unreserved today.
It will rise while the cattle were still ploughing, accompanies by its ever faithful concubines – the rays. To him it would say, “settle in, the day has just started. Plant and plough the land is your to do as you please”.
When it was time to release the oxen for grazing, it would tantalise his sun-kissed back, knead those work-toned muscles as he took strength emarhewini*. He would then make his way home, while it still baked his back but still pacified by his straw hat.
He would have his meal then sit on the sunny side of uTango*. Here he would allow sun to burn him on every side of his rib-cage. Mid-afternoon he would already be working on something in the yard. It could be fixing the fence getting heavy stones to prop up the poles of isibaya*, anything. He always found something to do while everyone too their afternoon siesta.
As brother sun (since they were long time acquaintances) makes his way to bed, they would both find their favourite spot. Ezixhotyeni*, this is where they would their deepest conversations – ancient secrets, discussion that would be defiled by the mere mention to any other human being. Then when Mr sun is done, my father would tip his straw hat and make his merry way home.
Emarhewini – (Amarhewu) – is a brewed non-alcoholic drink that is made from fermented mealies.
uThango- is the wall of the kraal.
Isibaya- is the kraal
Ezixhotyeni (isixhobo) – is a big natural cluster of stones. Ours face a river the runs to Umzimvubu – that leads to the Indian ocean
It will rise while the cattle were still ploughing, accompanies by its ever faithful concubines – the rays. To him it would say, “settle in, the day has just started. Plant and plough the land is your to do as you please”.
When it was time to release the oxen for grazing, it would tantalise his sun-kissed back, knead those work-toned muscles as he took strength emarhewini*. He would then make his way home, while it still baked his back but still pacified by his straw hat.
He would have his meal then sit on the sunny side of uTango*. Here he would allow sun to burn him on every side of his rib-cage. Mid-afternoon he would already be working on something in the yard. It could be fixing the fence getting heavy stones to prop up the poles of isibaya*, anything. He always found something to do while everyone too their afternoon siesta.
As brother sun (since they were long time acquaintances) makes his way to bed, they would both find their favourite spot. Ezixhotyeni*, this is where they would their deepest conversations – ancient secrets, discussion that would be defiled by the mere mention to any other human being. Then when Mr sun is done, my father would tip his straw hat and make his merry way home.
Emarhewini – (Amarhewu) – is a brewed non-alcoholic drink that is made from fermented mealies.
uThango- is the wall of the kraal.
Isibaya- is the kraal
Ezixhotyeni (isixhobo) – is a big natural cluster of stones. Ours face a river the runs to Umzimvubu – that leads to the Indian ocean
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Be art to me
Tell me my story
Sing it to me
Tell it to me
Just as you know it will be
Draw me my story
Paint me a path
Give them to me
Colours as they'll ever be
Capture it for me
In your lenses black and white
Take my soul
With your eyes
Tell it to me in clay
The work of a porter's hand
Splattered and moulded
Through my pain and joy
Weave the tendons of my soul
Play its harps strings
Keep it pumping
Keep it beating
Write me words
Keep me alive
Make me think
Be art to me
Sing it to me
Tell it to me
Just as you know it will be
Draw me my story
Paint me a path
Give them to me
Colours as they'll ever be
Capture it for me
In your lenses black and white
Take my soul
With your eyes
Tell it to me in clay
The work of a porter's hand
Splattered and moulded
Through my pain and joy
Weave the tendons of my soul
Play its harps strings
Keep it pumping
Keep it beating
Write me words
Keep me alive
Make me think
Be art to me
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Do you know me?
Do you know me?
Did you see me when I was 12?
Struggling to make sense of life
Grasping at straws
Trying to understand the world I'm in
Do you know me?
Where were you when I was 19?
Trying to figure out my place in the world
Placing myself amongst my peers
Sometimes sliding on sinking sand
Do you know me?
Remember when I was 25?
Thinking I had it al figured out
My life, my job, my career
The ins and outs without any care
Did you say you know me?
You should have seen me 5 years ago
Then you would have seen the face of confusion
A young adult fooled by illusion
Lost in the midst within fusion
Dare, say you know me
When I am trying to figure that out myself
When one and one refuse to make two
And half and half don't make whole
Maybe I change when change comes
When I read or write I change
What I choose to hear changes me
And sometimes what I try to ignore changes me, anyway
I evolve...
I am not who I was
Surely I am who I am
And becoming who I'll be
Now tell me
Do you know me?
Did you see me when I was 12?
Struggling to make sense of life
Grasping at straws
Trying to understand the world I'm in
Do you know me?
Where were you when I was 19?
Trying to figure out my place in the world
Placing myself amongst my peers
Sometimes sliding on sinking sand
Do you know me?
Remember when I was 25?
Thinking I had it al figured out
My life, my job, my career
The ins and outs without any care
Did you say you know me?
You should have seen me 5 years ago
Then you would have seen the face of confusion
A young adult fooled by illusion
Lost in the midst within fusion
Dare, say you know me
When I am trying to figure that out myself
When one and one refuse to make two
And half and half don't make whole
Maybe I change when change comes
When I read or write I change
What I choose to hear changes me
And sometimes what I try to ignore changes me, anyway
I evolve...
I am not who I was
Surely I am who I am
And becoming who I'll be
Now tell me
Do you know me?
Sunday, April 10, 2011
This Sun
This sun
Cleansing my soul
Burning chuff
Soothing my heart
This sun
Washing over me
Speaking to me
Of tomorrow and a day beyond
Of hope and never ending joy
This sun
Singing to me
Songs of love and laughter
Crying with me
Tears of joy and sorrow
Tomorrow might be a better day
But still I have to get up and fight
Get up and make do
For tomorrow waits for no one
But proceeds with what is there today
This sun
Cleansing my soul
Teaching me things
Talking to me
Washing over me
Cleansing my soul
Burning chuff
Soothing my heart
This sun
Washing over me
Speaking to me
Of tomorrow and a day beyond
Of hope and never ending joy
This sun
Singing to me
Songs of love and laughter
Crying with me
Tears of joy and sorrow
Tomorrow might be a better day
But still I have to get up and fight
Get up and make do
For tomorrow waits for no one
But proceeds with what is there today
This sun
Cleansing my soul
Teaching me things
Talking to me
Washing over me
Saturday, February 26, 2011
From my toe nail
To the tip of my hair
Ripples of movement give away
Music takes over
From my curving arm
To the stomping of my feet
I am on air
I feel the waves
The ground recieves my feet
The song engages my body
The strings prompt me forward
The drum beat moves be backward
I am captivated
My body has no will
Music has taken over
Ancient senses have been aroused
The sun, moon and the stars
Share secret sentiments
I move with them
I am enchanted
My feet find balance in the rhythm
My head hears an ancient song
My heart connects to the never had
My soul reaches out to the about to have
I am made whole
I am satisfied
My world begins here
My world ends here
To the tip of my hair
Ripples of movement give away
Music takes over
From my curving arm
To the stomping of my feet
I am on air
I feel the waves
The ground recieves my feet
The song engages my body
The strings prompt me forward
The drum beat moves be backward
I am captivated
My body has no will
Music has taken over
Ancient senses have been aroused
The sun, moon and the stars
Share secret sentiments
I move with them
I am enchanted
My feet find balance in the rhythm
My head hears an ancient song
My heart connects to the never had
My soul reaches out to the about to have
I am made whole
I am satisfied
My world begins here
My world ends here
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Love letter to Eno
If I could I would
Make the world a better place
If I can I will
Make you better for it
I know I can
Prapare you for this place
If I could I would
Lower mountains and valleys
If I can I will
Teach you to climb
I know I can
Train your limbs
If I could I would
Buy you inspiration
If I can I will
Teach you honour and intergrity
I know I can
Lead by example
If I could I would
Be here for you till eternity
If I can I will
Teach you how to live
I know I can
Smoother you with love
If I could I would
Pick your friends
If I can I will
Make remarks so that you see
I know I can
See trouble from afar
If I could I would
Tell you that life will be perfect
If I can I will
Arm you with faith and hope
I know I can
Be here for you whenever you need me
Make the world a better place
If I can I will
Make you better for it
I know I can
Prapare you for this place
If I could I would
Lower mountains and valleys
If I can I will
Teach you to climb
I know I can
Train your limbs
If I could I would
Buy you inspiration
If I can I will
Teach you honour and intergrity
I know I can
Lead by example
If I could I would
Be here for you till eternity
If I can I will
Teach you how to live
I know I can
Smoother you with love
If I could I would
Pick your friends
If I can I will
Make remarks so that you see
I know I can
See trouble from afar
If I could I would
Tell you that life will be perfect
If I can I will
Arm you with faith and hope
I know I can
Be here for you whenever you need me
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Paint Me
These pictures that you paint for me
The colours that you lay before me
A transparent blue
A transluscent green
The strokes that go up and down
A mixture of night and day
I learn from you
I learn from them
The dark grey of heavy clouds
The bright yellow of a shining sun
The green of the coming spring
The pink of new love
You paint me
Your paint for me
Paint me red
And my heart will pant
Give me blue
And pay my dues
Splash for me white
I sure will see the light
Give me hope
Paint me bold
The colours that you lay before me
A transparent blue
A transluscent green
The strokes that go up and down
A mixture of night and day
I learn from you
I learn from them
The dark grey of heavy clouds
The bright yellow of a shining sun
The green of the coming spring
The pink of new love
You paint me
Your paint for me
Paint me red
And my heart will pant
Give me blue
And pay my dues
Splash for me white
I sure will see the light
Give me hope
Paint me bold
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
my music
Music lives in me
It makes my bones move
This way and that way
My hips sway
Music moves me
Then it makes me cry
Breath in, breath out
It calms me
Music loves me
Rhythm and blues for my heart
Day in, day out
My soul sings
Music speaks to me
Its words echo my thoughts
So good, so nice
My heart sings
Music feeds me
If feels my heart with joy
Jumping and leaping
My bones rejoice
It makes my bones move
This way and that way
My hips sway
Music moves me
Then it makes me cry
Breath in, breath out
It calms me
Music loves me
Rhythm and blues for my heart
Day in, day out
My soul sings
Music speaks to me
Its words echo my thoughts
So good, so nice
My heart sings
Music feeds me
If feels my heart with joy
Jumping and leaping
My bones rejoice
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
My love...
My heart carries you
Wherever I go
My mind thinks of you
Day and night
I lay in my bed
And dream of you
Africa my love
My womb carries your seed
I fervently protect you
Like a hen on her chicks
I want to sit and cover you
I look at your scars and bleed
I look at your marks and weep
Why have they done this to you
The beat of my heart
Speaks of you
The rhythm in my ribs
Drums your name
I know, when I die
My flesh will feed you soil
That way death does not victor
The soles of my feet
Feel your roughness
The beat of my heart
Feels your cry
The tingling of my skin
Hears your screamns
I lay awake all night
Thinking of you
I was born to love you
Made to adore you
Raised to know you
Grew to appreciate you
I was made for you
And you for me...
Wherever I go
My mind thinks of you
Day and night
I lay in my bed
And dream of you
Africa my love
My womb carries your seed
I fervently protect you
Like a hen on her chicks
I want to sit and cover you
I look at your scars and bleed
I look at your marks and weep
Why have they done this to you
The beat of my heart
Speaks of you
The rhythm in my ribs
Drums your name
I know, when I die
My flesh will feed you soil
That way death does not victor
The soles of my feet
Feel your roughness
The beat of my heart
Feels your cry
The tingling of my skin
Hears your screamns
I lay awake all night
Thinking of you
I was born to love you
Made to adore you
Raised to know you
Grew to appreciate you
I was made for you
And you for me...
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Being me
Its hard to be me
When me is hidden
Behind so many layer of pretense
Pretense being a cover
Protection from taunters
Who have over the years
Taught me its wrong to be me
I am happy when I'm me
Me making sense of me
And the world that sorrounds me
And laws made by men for men
Breaking free
While my soul struggles
Behind cages built
By me and my law makers
Breaking free, breaking free
Rattling the cage
That has imprisoned me
Loosening those bounds
Severing those ropes
Tearing the cobwebs
Yes, breaking free
Breaking free, breaking free
Like Samson of the bible
Testing boundaries that conform
Restrict, rule and dominate
Breaking free
When me is hidden
Behind so many layer of pretense
Pretense being a cover
Protection from taunters
Who have over the years
Taught me its wrong to be me
I am happy when I'm me
Me making sense of me
And the world that sorrounds me
And laws made by men for men
Breaking free
While my soul struggles
Behind cages built
By me and my law makers
Breaking free, breaking free
Rattling the cage
That has imprisoned me
Loosening those bounds
Severing those ropes
Tearing the cobwebs
Yes, breaking free
Breaking free, breaking free
Like Samson of the bible
Testing boundaries that conform
Restrict, rule and dominate
Breaking free
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Defying Death
Death does not faze me
It is too predictable to scare
Death is not a thief
It happens too often to surprise
Always lurking on the outskirts
Circling the bonds of loved ones
Looking to take and intimidate
Death is a lousy lie
Taking breath but leaving the body
Death is a pathetic cheat
Taking but never giving back
It is too predictable to scare
Death is not a thief
It happens too often to surprise
Always lurking on the outskirts
Circling the bonds of loved ones
Looking to take and intimidate
Death is a lousy lie
Taking breath but leaving the body
Death is a pathetic cheat
Taking but never giving back
Sunday, January 9, 2011
A brand new start
A brand new start
Not removed from the past
Like any from of art
With dashes of the past and present
Like any form of gift
With traces of the future
A brand new start
Not away of escaping the past
But a redoing part
Bolding those blue and thinning that red
Reviewing and aligning
A brand new perspective
A fresh new beginning
With energised and aired redoing
Removing that brick there and putting in fittings
Replacing this with that and it looks new
Sweeping hidden places and re-checking the overlooked
The fresh smell of domestos with handy-andy
A brand new me
The old new me
All mixed up in one, me
Not removed from the past
Like any from of art
With dashes of the past and present
Like any form of gift
With traces of the future
A brand new start
Not away of escaping the past
But a redoing part
Bolding those blue and thinning that red
Reviewing and aligning
A brand new perspective
A fresh new beginning
With energised and aired redoing
Removing that brick there and putting in fittings
Replacing this with that and it looks new
Sweeping hidden places and re-checking the overlooked
The fresh smell of domestos with handy-andy
A brand new me
The old new me
All mixed up in one, me
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